After a lot of thinking and measuring different alternatives against one another, I´ve finally made up my mind. I ´ve decided to return to Sweden in April next year. Even if I do love living here in Phnom Penh, there are two strong reasons for this decision. The first one is strictly personal; I feel that it´s time to go home and reunite with my loved ones; my beloved husband and pets. As I wrote in the previous posting; no place in the world, no matter how much enjoy living there, can ever be my home to 100 % if they are not by my side. In April next year we´ve been living on different sides of the world for 2 years, and it´s been working surprisingly well. But we don´t want to go on like this forever. And it feels like it´s a good time to go home "to touch base" for a while after two years. And as my very clever and supportive friend Louise said the other day;
"Sometimes it´s good to leave when you´re on the top of things, when everything is going well. And not wait until you´ll find yourself in bad situation. In that way, you´ll leave with positive memories and be able to make the very best of the situation..." I couldn´t agree with her more! The second reason being that my employer has decided to localize the position that I have. This is a policy decision for all our offices globally, which means that all Swedish staff with my position will successively be phased out and replaced with nationally employed staff. Which in turn means that if I´d like to extend my contract when it expires in April next year, I would not be employed by the Swedish head office anymore but by our office here in Cambodia. Which comes with worse conditions for everything; salary, benefits, insurances, etc. The whole idea is of course that Swedish staff will be phased out and replaced by national staff, so we will now start to recruit a Cambodian replacer for me, that hopefully will be able to start by the beginning of next year for a handing over process before it´s time for me to leave.
This decision is quite new, so to some extent I still have mixed emotions about leaving my beloved Cambodia... But at the same time, it feels nothing but right to reunite with my loved ones. The decision kind of grew on me when I was in Sweden in September, and I made up my mind during my last days there. So when I came back to Cambodia earlier this week and was notified by the head office that my position would be localized, it just confirmed to me that I had made the right decision already.
Work wise, I just have to see what happens. Formally, I still have a permanent position to go back to, but as the governmental authority that I´m employed by currently is undergoing a major reorganisation, who knows what the situation will be when I´m finally back in Sweden... So I´ll start to look for some other jobs as well, and take it from there. Right now I´m not worried at all, I must say. I´ll just take it as it comes. And I´m sure it´ll work out in one way or another, as it ususally does. My biggest challenge has actually been to take this decision at all, and I´m sure that now that piece of the puzzle has fallen into place, the others will too, eventually....
I´m not at all excluding the possibility of going abroad for another mission in the future. On the contrary I´m pretty sure that I will, but for the time it´s time to go home.
So; see you all Swedes in April!
BRING IT HOME TO ME by Sam Cooke
On Sunday morning, we´re heading to the coast for a well deserved holiday. We´ll stay one night in Sihanoukville first, before taking the boat to our main destination; "Lazy Beach". On the island, there are no telephones, no internet-connection, no television, no modernities what so ever. Just a long, beautiful beach, the ocean and us with a pile of books. The food and drinks are supposed to be excellent, which of course is a bonus as well. So we´re looking forward to a lovely, relaxing week.
